Seriousness

Is my approach or at least is reflected on me, my face, my posture, or my staring.

Knowing can't give up on her yet, but I can try to think of her less and less, gradually. Just keep myself occupied by work and novels. just the matter of time either she falls for me or I fall apart

Just realize lately I've spent too much, way too much time thinking of her. That much time gets along with so much beer. That much beer drags along with too little sleep.  Exhausted !!!

Two "small" regional projects that save the boss's ass were a little less than limit I can handle.

The engine is too old. No matter how I lubricate the lever, brush the rusty surface, fill the gas tank. It is too old to operate. No matter how I desire to save that machine, there's no response at all. It was me who left it alone for too long, now it left me. The engine that this mechanical heart left me in pieces.

That is what people say : You'll deserve what you planted.

Last thing, the very last to-do thing:
  - Make sure that she knows how I feel
  - Make sure that I know how she feel
  - Make the decision that leave no regret for both.
That's the plan ! Too serious !