Reality

An unknown girl ! Oh my god ! what exactly am I thinking ? Or just what state am I right now ?
But ... it's sweet ^^!

I don't know her, and neither does she.
She has gentle yet bright smile. Her short hair really impresses me ... so innocent !!!! ARGGGGGG
I got into her house, not really sure that's her house.
She has one sister, [this part is ... totally out of the question] who ... is in the same Japanese class as I am !!!
The scene that I remember so well :
3 of us sitting on the bench; I'm sitting at one end, the sister at the another, and she ... is lying on the bench [what the ...] Of course her head is on my side [at least in my dream I still have some sense of fact]. She ... is just so cute that I can't hold myself back. I lift up her head, and land it on my lap ! [Maybe in reality I would never dare to do such thing] ... And ... She just lets it be ! Oh my god ! Can I take it as a YES ? Yes to be my friend ? If that's the case, I would be very very happy ! ... Even though I was forced to wake up by some unknown reason,  I feel ease in my heart. She calms them down, all of my confusion, frustration, temptation, ... with that event, I think I can love again ^^ A little bit hopeful, maybe at some place, at some time, I will be able to meet her, my destined ... [even type it out ... really embarrassing ... tch ].
Sooner or later we're gonna meet each other, :)

By the way, it definitely be very great if her birthday is on the same date as mine too @_@ Yes, we can celebrate it together. The present for her, which I would plan it carefully several months ahead, design courses of action, how that day is gonna be, how she would get the present surprisingly, how I want her to be happy. It must be one hand-tiny thing like key chain, or pendant or a wooden music box, so that she can carry it all around, and it is unique ^^. And one other thing would be ... thing that has practical use ... like ... I don't know. Or just in case she doesn't like my hand-made stuff, it's too weird or too embarrassing to carry, who knows, hahaha.

 + I'll get her some flowers, which has distinctive yet not too strong scent, in the very early morning. Wish her have a beautiful day.[She won't know whose it is of course ^^]

 + I'll bake her one small cake, draw her name and her funny face on it, hahaha. She would scold me for that, hahaha. With a candle on it, definitely ! XD

 + I'll cook dinner myself, let me see, what I'm gonna cook ? Japanese cuisine ? Korean ? or dishes that I'm most confident, American food ? Maybe Spice Italian Spaghetti would be perfect, too. [Maybe I would appear as a waiter + chef in that moment too. The menu is shown to her look like :
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------JAPANESE :
========Tonkotsu  ramen :        Not available : Ramen is out of Stock
========Kitsune Udon :             Not available : Tofu has turned smelly.
========Unagi Udon :                Not available : Eels go out for their friend's birthday party
========Natsu Chicken :           Not available : All chickens are busy with "Chicken run" cartoon]
------AMERICAN :
======== Beef Tips :                  Not available : mad cow decease.
======== Apple pork chop :       Not available : 3 pigs are stuck in the wood, surrounded by a evil wolf
======== Spicy Spaghetti :         1 serving left [only for friend of great chef Mart ]
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(I guess she would ... be shocked for a moment !!! what the hell is this ? And when she forcefully asks for the only spicy spaghetti, she will be asked "Are you friend of our great chef Mart ?" ! hahaha, wonder how she will react ! Maybe .. she will say YES and give me a k... (ARGGGGGG) )

 + Not done yet, I'll also prepare honey apple for her [Japanese style]
 + We're watching movie after meal, while enjoying ice cream, hahaha
 + And right before the end, I'll sing, sing the song that I wrote just for her. [Hope ... she likes it]
 + A gentle kiss on her forehead and say "Good night !" will end up for the day. She'll walk hastily with so adorable shyness.

[Sigh]

By the way, all of that must be prepared in advance, and she must, must, must not have any idea about what will come. Maybe three days before that important day, I will make her angry, and try to ... ignite a little fight ! hahaha. Or shouldn't I =.=' Or I pretend to be very busy with my work, and has no time for her at all. haha

If her [and my ^^] birthday were on weekend ? Maybe I should go out and have fun with her, in the morning, then, find some reasonable excuse, leave her in the afternoon and ... "evening, too" [with "I'm sorry, I don't think I can meet you tonight. I'll call u later", then hang up hurriedly, haha] That will be the time that I can confirm everything go as plan.
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I wonder what I would answer if she asks me ... what do I want for my birthday ?
I would say ... 1 billion dollars without a second thought ! hahahaha ! [And again, another red hill rising on my head]. If all events above can be done with her, she feels happy, I think I'll be happy too. She gives me some one to love, some one to take care of. [a picture of smile in my dream just pops up. Ok ok, even though I don't know her face, but I'm sure her smile is really really beautiful. I feel so blessed ]
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Dreams are my reality, the only kind of reality... my fantasy ^^

Saturday morning

Can't really understand what my body is thinking ??? [Wait a minute !!! body ? thinking ? ]

It makes me sleepy when no meal is eaten. This I can understand, no energy ... blah, blah, blah

But after I serve myself noodle as breakfast, my eyes get so heavy that they can barely stay open. What the ... ! The early morning ... [sigh] ... It happens quite a couple of times, which can be derived as a fact for me.

One is said to treasure the unique and precious silent moment of the day, yes, right now, I want to do nothing but  sit lazily and idly on this rough and so inconvenient armchair, staring at the rain as if this is my first time that I've ever see something falling down from the sky that much. So much that I can't chase my sight after a single entity. That entity falls down, touch the ground, go through it, and a flower of similar yet smaller entities blooms.

Maybe I really should take another nap ?!? Really love to ... [sigh]
They're late. They're supposed to be here half an hour ago.

Never mind ! Why should I be bothered by this kind of thing ?
By the way, really enjoy this morning ^^ so peaceful ^^

Once in a while

The internet era is quite frightening in some sense. Couples of years ago, there would be no way for me to get my hand on a single photo of her; yet now, simply type her email address, I've gotten a bunch. Feel a bit bad though, or should I ask her first ... Yeah, it's rude to sneak into one's private stuff without proper permission after all... But what if she'll make it private ! Sound like a self contradiction is carried out.

Picasa is quite a surprisingly scary tool, too. Got my laptop installed few days ago, and it have one function that can detect various faces from its library, not a very impressive innovation when all come from research fields like artificial intelligence, computer vision, ... or something like that. Thing that got me off guard was ... it even notices ... faces of statue, or those in painting ... oh my god ... and I am supposed to assign a name for those faces ... hahaha [speechless]

Now, I check out her profile picture 3 times per day ! hahaha, since I do not possess a so-called "friend" title in her Facebook. Quite funny though ! What can a single picture say ?
what is it showing physically? => Guess somehow what she is thinking or feeling at that moment ?
when is it changed ? => after a certain duration, I can guess her favorite on-line time, no ?
At least I still gain something, I mean ... far better than nothing.

Used to say ... too embarrassing to repeat ... And now wonder what got into me at that time when saying ... such words !!! Think again, and again, ... Did I really mean it ? Yes, I did. Now ?

As part of my composition :
わたし　の　ともだち　は　ドラエモン　です。
ドラエモン　ちゃん　は　かいしゃいん　です。
ドラエモン　ちゃん　は　とても　かわいい　です。そして　ちょっと　しずか　づす。そして　しんせつ　です。
でも　かれ　が　あります　から、　いま　すこし　いそがし　ですね。
ドラエモン　ちゃん　の　かれ　は　にほんじん　です　から、らいねん　にほんへ　いきます。あれ　は　やくそく　が　あります。
ドラエモン　ちゃん　は　にほんご　が　だいたい　わかりま。
ドラエモン　ちゃん　は　ほん　が　あまり　すきじゃありませんが、　おんがく　が　とても　すきです。にほんのおんがく　です。
。。。

Anyway, if I let it be on this flow of thinking, ... there's no end ... while there're so many things waiting to be done ... [sigh] As I ensured my friend ... only once in a while that I got carried away like this [hopefully]

Dreamers

One private company in 3 years time.

3 years is the worst case, as which we are taught to talk about when measuring performance of one algorithm or plan.

3 years is the time he#1 will take to get his second degree in Biz.

3 years is the time he#1 and I are supposed to gather enough ingredients to cook our dream. And that is ... 20k USD.

Dream of, 

One morning, as an indifferent other morning, 

Two men in their suits, having breakfast with each other.

Two bosses coming to their company by bus/train.

Two bosses going back by bus/train.

It's free and quite ... money-saving anyway.

Because of the fact that they don't have to pay for transportation, when those systems are built by those two.

Two bosses = two chairmans = two chiefs = two working staffs = two security guards = two toilet cleaners 

XDDDDDDD

Maybe the only good thing is that we are our own bosses, 

We make things as they never exist before in this world,

We pursuit our own crazy dreams, to make them fail to be "dream".

There are and will be a lot of things we don't know yet, 

A lot of questions need to be asked, 

A lot of obstacle need to be found, and overcome, 

... 

We choose the hard way, 

They are foolish, but they are ours.

Dear me, all of selfs of mine ... 

If u wish it that badly ... u know very well, 

What to drop, what to throw away and ... for what to pick up.

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XD

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Due to several uncertainty yet controllable circumstances, number of boss might vary XDDD

Its domain is D[2..10] XDDDD if all of my friends join in this wonder lands !!! XDDDD

10 toilet cleaners doesn't sound bad at all !!! XDDDDDDD

Loved ...

Through corners of darkness,
In dew those wet lips,
Frigidly, night stars float,
Plentiful, falling leaves roll,
Loved, smiles without a word,
Hesitatingly on her shoulder,
And gently an old leaf lands its kiss.

An autumn that is,
Present on her lips.
Whispered did tired feet,
What does it say,
That gust of silent wind ?
Feeling of one hand,
Fragile, so she's worried,
What if ... it fell, feeling of her, that is ...
When she leans on him.

A gentle smile,
Seen by floating clouds, so shy,
Did they blush ?
And flied away in a late late evening.
Loved, tidy bolide is worn
Does she feel cold ?

...