A troublesome boy that I am,
Remember how they were so worried about the kind like me, ...
Seem the first time I feel how important I am to them
Seem the first time I feel I am so pathetic right in front of those I want to protect most
Feel like to cry ^^
Even though I am absolutely confident about my strength, I was afraid I was not able to wake up on that day.
Talking to myself,
There're so many things I've yet done, and simply cannot be stopped here, at this moment.
Mom super boss said I'd better got my hair cut, so that all the unlucky things will be casted away.
Teni, one of my best friends, kept popped up out of nowhere in my house, ... just want to be sure that I'm ok. haha. He rode my bicycle back for me from his house, brought back my stuffs. Tagged along with me to the hospital. Asked me out for dinner, prefer me to walk up instead of lying there hours after hours, ... He doesn't talk much though ^^
They are my treasure, and I used to think ... I would trade them with a chance to turn back time. And now I feel thankful that such a trade does not exist, or at least it seems that way.
Everything is alright now. Wasted one whole day for sleeping, sigh, compared to normal day with 3-4 hours, I have so many things to catch up with.
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She sent me a thank you message though,
I decided to visit her house in the afternoon, when I'm pretty sure she's out for work.
Yet ... my pulse raced ... my head spun ... my voice trembled ....
Wonder what the hell was going on with me ... [sigh]
It doesn't matter anyway, since I cannot, don't wanna, bring myself believe in such thing like love when it doesn't exist. A family I used to think so warm, and happy, which I used to aim for in the future. A relationship lasted so long, their love is so pure, which everytime I trust no one, it reminds me there's still one out there for me to refer. And I can believe in a brighter scene. Now they're gone, all, broken, vaporized into thin air, left nothing but emptiness and pain.
Is money that important ?
Is it true that they are inevitable ?
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