Confused

"It's all I can do for you, son.
Now, go, change your state and live a better life than I am"
 ...
Chased and said the kid,
"Father, I'm afraid."
"Of what ?" On the ferry, shouted the father.
"I don't know the way back home."
"Don't be foolish, son. You just follow your feet !". He waved his son for the last time.
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Thinking for a while.
How can I return all to him ? to her ? to them ?

Do they need my money ?
Asking myself that question insults their intention. 
If I really think things have been done is investing
For someday to get interest ?

Do they need my time ?
They were once young.
Once chased unrealistic dream.
Once experienced how they were held back by others.
What they want is not time of my being with them.
What they want is time of my thinking of them.
And yes, I do. Just a little, everyday.

Wonder if sky-sail is used to measured height of the sky.
And painfully realize it is nothing near the goal.
And excitedly aim for the higher.

Do I over-estimate them ?

Or

Do I take it as an excuse ?
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I really don't know why she treated me so well when I am a stranger though ?
Why have they cared so much when I did nothing for them ?
Why did he still help me when I paid no care of him at all ?
Do I have something they want or need ?
Or am I that pitiful ?
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Persons and Things ... I still pin so much feeling of hatred ?
Are their existence really that considerable ?
Do they have any difference between themselves and rocks on the pavements ?
A dragonfly playing with bulb ?

Gotta reflex myself once for a while.... Sigh ...

Broken leaves

On his way of playing chess,
Loved ones indeliberately become shining pawns.
Yet his motive is love and re-union.

Don't worry,
Already I can see the ending.

Everything are clear now.
Questions to be faced,
Plans of action to be prepared.
In a flash of light, I wish it isn't ...

Kept heart in the freezer,
He managed his mind.
After a flash of time, he wished he didn't.

It's a matter of heart.
A matter of mind.
Will he have an eternal sunshine ?
His motive is love and re-union.

Don't worry,
Like a mangaka, I draw ...
And already, I've seen the ending.

Existence

My name is "friend",
And I love you,
Can you love me ?
I give you things of mine.
How generous, and kind I am..
You'll give me things of yours, 
When I need it of course.
An expectation under a motivation.

My name is "best friend",
Sometimes I am called "love".
And ...
I give you the only thing of mine.
My ego.
Like selfishly I breathe.
Cause they're not for you, things I've done.
Nothing save to my self-satisfaction.
   On the street you're walking on,   
   A thousand houses long,
   Well, that's where I belong.
   And you belong with me,
   Not swallowed in the sea.
Therefore, be yourself.
Don't hesitate, don't hold back.
Fly, as high, as far ...

My name is "loved",
And you love me.
You give me things of yours.
A puzzle puzzling me,
Are you "friend" or "best friend" or "love" ?

Swimming in the sea of faces.
Foot prints on the sand.
Waves coming,
I don't mind.

Complicated heart?

Something to be proud of ...
The only thing I have,
The only thing I could give you,
My ego.

If I accept you now, I'll be your world.
I'll be your existence.
You won't need yourself.
Therefore, I won't need you.
Cause that won't last long.

No matter how you think you could change,
The one and only way you really wish to be loved is the original self.
You want to be accepted as you are, one whole piece.
Not contaminated !

Nothing you say can move me.
Cause I've chosen the road that I'm on.
I want to fight for freedom.
Until the war is won !

My lover sunlight and me

On the road
We play tag
You kiss me
hot my cheek

We are strangers,
Our eyes meet

On my road I walk
Through the little shadow
Faster and faster
Looking for
The beautiful lady behind the shadow
Wonder she is still there.
It's you, my lover sunlight.

You hold warmth
Warmth shine my chest
After a while.

You kiss me
Hot my cheek
After a while.

Standing still before
A tall tall building
Like two hands holding tight....
More than words ...
So this is good bye ?
I'll see you tomorrow ?

My name is Liberty ...
... Sunlight, she smiles
...Hi Sunlight !

...

On a sunny peaceful afternoon

I wonder ...
How far my eyes spread,
How tough the ground lies,
How colorful your imagination draws

Follow the flow, of mine.

On the busy trains,
On the crowded streets,
Above the lazy skies,
Below the silent oceans,

I'm there,
Follow the flow, of mine.

Stand straight and strong, my friends.
I'll come and go.
Yes, one day, I'm simply fly away...
Without a trace.

So please now,
My eyes were begging, but my mouth was not.
I died on the surface, yet creamed underneath.
I wished I could, but I didn't.

Wonder why my eyes still opened ...
Why my minds still thought ...
Cause a couple of seconds later, all would be lost...
Without a trace.

Oh oh yeah !
Ah ah yeah !
Everything's not lost !